It’s a long title, I know. But you peeked didn’t you. It got your attention?
I am perplexed by a belief that is, at least in part – probably the part I don’t understand- contrary to what I am experiencing in real life. The idea that we, as Christians, are to expect God to work in our life. To expect great things from him. And so I do. And my rose colored expectation inevitably ends in sour, cloudy and sometimes down right trenchal disappointment. But it doesn’t end there, When I am not expecting, when I am not looking, when I don’t think much about it at all, I am suprised by what occurs, which in turn turns my cloudy disappointment into rose colored expectation. Its an awful cycle. And I don’t like it one bit!
So then comes the truth: could it be that my expectation is out of sync with where God wants me? With where my heart ought to be? With my focus? What is my rose colored expectation focusing on? And as far as the cloudy disappointment goes, perhaps I am disappointed because it is my want, my will, my desire and it is not God’s. He is allowing those disappointments to come to light so that I might then turn to him to seek where my heart and focus and expectation ought to be.
It’s nice living in a world where we believe that if we love God enough, if we obey what he asks, if we even follow steadfastly after him he will give us what we want. But that isn’t true. It can’t be. Because once we turn to him, all that changes. It becomes less significant.
Rather I think when we do all those things, earnestly, our wants become obsolete and what we want no longer matters. We seek what God wants and he reveals to us where our focus ought to be. He corrects our rosy vision so that we see clearly and plainly and are able to embrace who we truly are in Christ, who he sees us as.
Nobody said this life was going to be easy. Or fair. Or even something we understand. Rarely is it rosy and often full of cloudy disappointments.