Women are amazing and dynamic creatures. With this privilege comes many highs and sometimes lows. This week I am experiencing one of the downsides of being a woman. Next Thursday, I am having surgery. It is out patient, and while a fairly common procedure, it is still surgery that requires anesthesia. I am not scared, at least not at this moment, but I am aware of the risks involved.

I have been experiencing pelvic pain more often than I should. Including flank pain in my back near the kidneys – the pain started about a year ago. I have had check ups, CT scans, and an IVP and now, it is determined, that the insides need to be looked at. Enter the Laparoscopy.  This is where a small incision is made in my belly button (thank goodness – who wants scars?) and a tube with a camera and a light is inserted so they can look at what is happening and what may be causing the pain. A potential diagnosis from this surgery may be endometriosis.  That is concerning, considering one of the effects of this can be infertility and I have yet to have children.

So, one week away from my surgery date, and here I am: the logical, scientific side of me. Researching what the terms are, what the possible diagnosis could be, and understanding the risks of undergoing surgery and what may transpire once the surgery is complete and a diagnosis is made.

It may sound flippant of me, perhaps even dismissive, but my hope is in God. I do not fear going under anesthesia because I know that if it is my time, then God will call me home. Otherwise, I will wake up and God will put me back to work for what he has made me and called me to do. I do not fear what the diagnosis is because whatever it is, my life is in God’s hands. He will care for me and direct my paths. I know that whatever path he leads me down, it is where I am meant to be. I think one of my favorite passages in the Bible is in Philippians (NLT):

“20 For I fully expect and hope that I will never be ashamed, but that I will continue to be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past. And I trust that my life will bring honor to Christ, whether I live or die. 21 For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better. 22 But if I live, I can do more fruitful work for Christ. So I really don’t know which is better. 23 I’m torn between two desires: I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far better for me. 24 But for your sakes, it is better that I continue to live. 25 Knowing this, I am convinced that I will remain alive so I can continue to help all of you grow and experience the joy of your faith. 26 And when I come to you again, you will have even more reason to take pride in Christ Jesus because of what he is doing through me.”

Surgery can be scary. As I travel this journey, I hope that you will follow along. Perhaps even share your own journey with me. I hope that my experience brings any one going through or preparing for surgery a sense of calm and comraderie, compassion and hope.


6 thoughts on “Surgery

    Katy, you’ve got the right attitude! My first ortho doc, 15 surgeries ago, promised me that I was in God’s hands. That helped me so much! This week I’m making appts for surgery #16 which will take place as soon as school is out and for surgery #17 which will happen about a month before we go back to school. All will be well for you, my friend – I have great faith!

  2. I had laparoscopic surgery for the same reason. I ended up with 4 incisions and had an iuD removed from my abdominal wall. My more a had perforated my uterus and embedded in my abdominal wall. It was bad before but do much better after. The surgery itself was not bad at all. The recovery was fast. So aside from the diagnosis, know the surgery itself isn’t bad at all. I’ll keep you in my prayers. I can only imagine how difficult endometriosis would be and I hope it is something much more simple to manage. Have they checked your kidneys for backups. My flank pain when I am pregnant is because of hydronephrosis. I only get in pregnancy but it is common otherwise too. The pain is horrible and I hope you get feeling better. Good luck with everything!!

  3. Hi Katy-

    Just saw your post reposted on Facebook by Bret. I’m one of his former students. I have endometriosis and have had laparoscopic surgery once and will need it again soon. I just wanted to ease your mind a little by letting you know that the surgery itself is no big deal at all, so don’t worry too much. I was back to work in 4 days. If you do have endometriosis, the symptoms and the cysts are both very manageable, and you should not develop any fertility issues as long as you stay on top of your treatment plan. Good luck to you; I hope this helped a little!

  4. Thank you everyone for all your insight and well wishes. I am sure it will all turn out as it should. It will be an interesting journey that I look forward to sharing.

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